Personal - Filipinos

A long non Makeup Post. If youre a Filipino, please read.

This image is a repost from: LINK

After Typhoon Ondoy/Ketsana hit the Philippines, it was overwhelming to see the Filipinos come together as one. Filipinos were all united and tried their best to help those who were badly hit by the storm. What was more touching was that most people who really tried to do so much for the victims were victims as well. I was one of the lucky ones, who wasnt really affected by the storm or the flood. But citizens all over Manila, Rich, Poor, Famous, they werent spared by the storm. It just goes to show that Calamities like these dont really choose who theyre going to affect. You may have a dozen cars, a really nice house but that wont save you from when Earth has had enough.


After the storm, I was still a bit disapointed seeing so many people still throwing trash out their car windows, still littering all over the place. What is it going to take? Little things that we do, affect everyone in such a big way and we fail to realize that. That no matter how small our actions are, they do have a big impact on not just ourselves but everyone else.

People from all over the world who felt helpless did their best to help out those in need in our country. One group, The krewtons from Las Vegas, had a clothing drive for the Filipinos. It was organized by my friend Mara Yulo (she actually has a blog, here is the LINK) and a simple plan turned into a huge thing where not just Filipinos came to help out and donate but as well as other Americans who were touched by what had happened and to their pleas to help out. They were on the news too which helped to bring more people to come help and donate. But there were some who thought that they were just after media coverage. I mean really, what are they gona get out of that? Its just typical Crab Mentality.

Another thing, because the drive was succesful, they got sponsors. So all the boxes which they originally planned to send out themselves with their own money were supposed to be shipped by LBC for free. Buuutt, the government has put a ban on Clothing donations not directed to DSWD. Well its really more of the government charging them taxes if they dont send them to DSWD which is a department of the Government here in the Philippines. Which is kind of unfair, because they are already helping and they are putting a limit on those who want to help.

I see the point that they want to limit those who will take advantage of the tax free thingy at the Customs. But I think the smarter way to go about it is to have Non Profit Organizations register or something just so they have a list of organizations or people where donations can be sent to. Id understand why Filipinos abroad are hesitant to forward their donations to the Government. I just think at this time, we need all the help we can get. We definitely cant rely on the government to fill all the needs of our people as of the moment. Calamity fund for example, from 200 Billion is now 100 million. I dont even want to start thinking about where that money went.

Its just very sad that there are still some people who try to take advantage and try to make a profit when they are the ones who should really be leading us to progress.


http://abs-cbnnews.com/nation/10/05/09/one-stop-shop-donations-causes-confusion



Im not sure if you can access the videos, but here are the links:

Krewtons Clothing Drive
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1139604926053


Krewtons Featured on the News
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1046644141674




And more about Filipinos. Girl Talk is an online beauty community for the Filipinos much like makeupalley. Apparently there are some girls who made a group and an account on Multiply where they bash on other members and ridicule them. I dont even know what to say about it, because well take a look at their pictures....

If you are perfect, then by all means, go ahead and criticize other people. But no one is perfect. These are the type of people that our country dont need. These are the people that hinder us from progressing. I just really dont get it. Its quite sad having to need to bring down other people to feel good about yourself.

Anyway, Aika from Diary of a Recessionista told me about this and asked me to repost it. She was one of those who were made fun of, ridiculed and bashed by these girls. The only thing I see is that, they must be jealous of something. Sometimes when we are different, when we stand out this causes people to react a negative way. I guess its normal, but to go out of your way, just to bring them down is really pathetic.


To read more about this you can check out Aikas blog. You can find her post over here LINK

You think you know..

Currently: "Doublethinking"

The labyrinth world of doublethink:

"To know and not to know, to be conscious of complete truthfulness while telling carefully constructed lies, to hold simultaneously two opinions which cancelled out, knowing them to be contradictory and believing in both of them, to use logic against logic, to repudiate morality while laying to claim to it......to forget what it is necessary to forget then draw it back into memory again at the moment when it was needed, and then promptly forget it again, and above all apply the same process to the process itself - that was the ultimate subtlety: consciously to induce unsconsciousness, and then, once again, to become unconscious of the act of hypnosis you had just performed. Even to understand the word of "doublethink" involved the use of doublethink."


A sort of descrition of how my mind works. Lifted from the book 1984 by Orwell. It is mind blowing to ponder on it and I think I just spent the last 30 minutes doing just that. I am applying it to a predicament I am facing haha.

This is the best explanation I have to why you think I am what I am. I doublethink to believe what I need to believe for whatever reason - to get through the day, to lessen anxiety, to avoid conflict, to be normal, to not hurt someone". Meanwhile holding whatever I believe is true in my subconscious only to bring it out when flashes of a mental picture of the word "ALARM" is going off in my head. All my thoughts momentarily freeze as the mental picture becomes clearer and clearer until it fades away in less than a second. Yeah, reeking a little bit of insanity huh? Another vague post to get something off my chest. Yeah, i'm not dense.


BRAIN DAMAGE: I dont know how I can read a book and think I havent read it until reading the last few words. :/

Don't blame it on the alcohol

Just so youre warned, this post is a rant. haha


Guys are stupid. Of course im being general and that statement doesnt apply to all. But most of them are anyway.

One of the many things i've learned from my previous relationship are the bulok styles guys use. So I now find myself not tolerating all their BS. They half jokingly say something and then back down and crawl back to their holes when they realize it isnt working. At least have the (ehem) balls to say something and not blame it on alcohol the next day. Another thing, please consider who youre talking to! What pisses me off is thinking about what that person thinks of me for him to say those words to me. Granted we werent good friends or anything, ive known the person for quite a while. Not everyone is as nice as me, if i didnt let my temper get the best of me i may have done something more evil haha.

So to sum it up: Please do not come to me thinking that I want to get with you or think that im lonely and want to hookup. I am not that kind of person and you shouldve known better. If youre that desperate please, please, please dont bother people go lock yourself somwhere and scratch your own back. I am not interested.

I used to think that assuming things when guys joke around something was a little conceited so I let it pass. But Ive realized that i'm a "respectable person", and I deserve to be treated and talked to with respect.

But anyway, I know this isnt making any sense to anyone reading this.

CARPE DIEM!

First of all, Happy anniversary/monthsary to my love caby and ralph!

Anyway, yeah that was related because they officially got together about 2 days after I left. haha So its my 3rd monthsary too! Well actually it was yesterday, the 24th.


and time goes by so fassst! its insane. I feel like im in between, I feel that I left just recently but also feel like ive been floating around for quite some time now too. When I think about it, 3 months is such a short span of time you know? But a lot of things have happened, so I feel like its all been stretched out into a year.


See, for 2009 I :
1. Passed the Nursing board exam
2. got a "job"
3. have seen my baby cousin GROW!


and a bunch of other stuff. I got lazy to complete the list. But some of those things are just soo insignificant to me right now and I just get lost. I cant even keep track of days and dates. Im just floating. And thats what ive been doing for 3 months. Everything is robotic. I once complained to a friend and he said "ahh, SSDD" I had no idea what that meant so I asked. "Same shit, different day". But what else is there to do?

The only thing keeping me here is my Mother and my income. haha of course my mom is way more important, my sideline is just a bonus. I get to see her once a year every christmas. So I found this as an oppurtunity to spend more time with her. I will miss her when I go back home, so im trying to make the most out of it. And soo, nothing is going to make me go home. Even though there are days when I just feel so lonely that I want to get on the next available flight back home. But, time and timing ahh is not always on our side. And what is 6 months? compared to the 4-5 years that my mom has spent away from home? I also dont know when I can go back to visit my mom so I finally decided. The rest of the world can wait! It isnt like its going to stop with me. So I say, carpe diem!

But on a lighter note, this trip has taught me a lot of things. Little things that I consider to be missing pieces of myself. Which I will not divulge here because well who cares really hahaha. I think I will look back at this someday and be happy with my decision. Emphasis on someday. haha i am so not feeling it right now!

Facebook! Is keeping me company. I was just telling caby a while ago "I freakin comment on just about anything I see on facebook, thats how bored I am!" haha. But really, friends on facebook and elsewhere are making it easier. So thanks guys. I just really do not need to spend any more time with myself! So while Dia isnt around yet, virtual friends will do. lol. well atleast, they arent imaginary!

And while some are just so awesome right now. I cant help but wonder if things are going to be the same when I get back. Again with the 3 months thing. So much has happened not just to me but to other people too. I feel sad that a lot of things that I was used to has passed as the year ended. Its just never going to be the same! It doesnt help knowing that most, if not all my girls are losers now. I call them losers because they have a job and have no time for me. haha.

Anyway, I originally put 3 as the title of this entry. but yadah yadah yadah yadah. The 3 months that have passed has been both pretty good and very bad. Kind of scary to think of what else is in store for me for the next 9 months. Im kind of hoping that ive had my fill of the bad stuff already and the next 9 months will all be smooth sailing haha wishful thinking!

So though I dont believe in this crap, here is my 2009 horoscope (HAHAHA)

2009: Leo Horoscope: Love, Career, & General Trends

2009 Overview. 2009 is likely to be a banner year for relationships, connecting with a significant other, and work with the public, dear Leo. Some of you will form a partnership that either leads to marriage or is otherwise significant, some will enhance an existing close relationship, and most will derive much joy from their relationships with significant others. New partners met this year are likely to feel much like a breath of fresh air. Challenging relationships, or challenges in relationships, tend to be left behind. 2009 is a commitment-friendly year for you. Some of you will be taking a casual affair to a whole new level. Romance becomes a little more serious, but "fun-serious". Many of you will fall in love, or re-commit to a current lover. You continue to buckle down with money this year. Matters are not moving quickly when it comes to personal finances—in fact, there can be some struggles regarding unpredictable trends with money from outside sources or shared with a partner, which should be sorted out by October. Those born early in the sign (from July 23-27) may be required to make adjustments in their work and health routines in order to accommodate new changing circumstances. Towards the end of year, many of you will be getting serious about learning, studying hard, and changing your attitudes towards work. Many will be working on perfecting and refining skills that will be useful on the job, and some will be forced into that position. Career matters are dynamic and exciting from June 7-July 5.

Okay, see this just proves that im not typical LEO haha the whole "feel" of the prediction might be the exact opposite of whats happening in my life. The "changing attitudes towards work" would be nice though.

If youre interested to read the rest of this mumbo jumbo LEO 2009 detailed (yes theres more!) horoscope prediction you may CLICK ME. Those who want to check out their own mumbo jumbo 2009 predictions may CLICK ME

hmm and a bunch of other interesting other stuff there too!! that I will now go check haha. Oh I am not in any way associated with the website. I just typed 2009 horoscope leo and clicked on some random link. anyway.

Salvation was scribbled onto the Door
frantic, impatient
yet unforgiving
Beckoning with a single message
to All -
SEIZE THE DAY



Buhbye.

I am sick

blech. the last time I got sick was september last year and I felt like I was going to die. I lost so much weight I had to force myself to eat. Well anyway, i feel like im going to die again. Its probably due to not taking my vitamins after soo long and unhealthy habits. Oh well. thats what you get haha. last time it lasted 3 days with medicine. Im not taking any now because im just being stubborn haha.

Did you know that contrary to popular belief, citrus and vitamin c doesnt do much when you have a cold? dont ask me why because I dont know haha.

Arghhh..my head is chaotic. I have a couple of drafts waiting to be finished. I hope I dont have to work tomorrow because I just really dont need a crying, screaming and kicking koala stuck to my waist and it wouldnt be wise to have her around me anyway.

Dia's coming over! finally! I mean soon enough i think? haha im not even sure I couldnt concentrate because my head was pounding. But I think she is, I hope she stays until her ticket expires which is around...i dont think im allowed to say. but anyway, that'll make things faster if shes around then i just have to wait another ughh ladidada days until im home.

Home. Things to do and shit. hay haha. Im thinking of bummin for a few months before I actually look for a job? why? because I havent figured what to do with myself yet. Go back to school and do what I promised myself? ughhh i'll be around 33 by the time i finish school and im not financially capable of doing that just yet. Study something else? maybe. Do what my parents want me to do? mmm il think about it. And besides, I see working as this whole new phase in your life and I dont think im quite ready to make that leap yet. I dunno, I always feel like ending and starting a new chapter in my life is scary. it brings me closer to 30, to 40, to 50 to death! haha

anyway, im just rambling. im sure most of the stuff i typed wont make much sense to me in the morning.


Goodnight!

Oh joy.

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